The Truth About Being Born Again

I sat in the bar, the only bouncer working.  During the day, only one is needed, or so the bar thinks.  I watched a waitress being a waitress.  Pretty.  Very pretty.  Should I tell her?  Compliment her?

If I did, 5 possibilities lay before me:

1.  She likes the compliment, and our relationship changes in the sense that she feels attracted to me, or wants more from me than we have at the time—a simple work relationship.

2.  She likes the compliment as a compliment.  Nothing more.  Nothing less. Nothing changes.

3.  She dislikes the compliment, for whatever reason, but nothing changes.

4.  She dislikes the compliment, for whatever reason, but something changes.  She becomes annoyed with me for thinking her pretty…for whatever reason.

5.  She feels indifferent towards the compliment, and nothing changes. 

Five possibilities from two choices:  Compliment her, or don’t compliment her.

I chose not to compliment her.

I realized this choice as perhaps the first conscious choice of my life.

In this realization, I was experiencing a kind of rebirth as a conscious being.

It reminded me of what Morpheus said to Neo after unplugging Neo from the Matrix:

Neo: Why do my eyes hurt?

Morpheus: You've never used them before.

I’d never used my will before, not like that, not with conscious awareness of two roads before me.

Really…

I’d never

been

truly

alive.

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