Her dream of heaven and hell

"When we want to be something other than the thing God wants us to be, we must be wanting what, in fact, will not make us happy."  ~C.S. Lewis

Everyone comes to a point where God shows them how to get exactly what they want—Him! 

No matter what it is, sex, drugs, money, fame, beauty, whatever, he takes them to the point in their imaginations where they know that they know that they know that God is what they’ve been trying to get.  They’ve been trying to get from the creature what can only come from the Creator.  And they know it. 

Now they’ve ALWAYS kind of known it.  But God makes it so clear that they can’t fake it any more.

So.

Here she is.

She sees two roads.

One where she is who she’s imagined herself to be.

The other where she sees herself as God sees her, and has always seen her.

Now God’s view isn’t the “you’re a sinful slimy worm” view we’d think it is.  This isn’t the true conviction of sin we’d think.

God shows her who she really is and who she really wants to be.  She sees this in contrast to who she pretends she is, the false identity she assumes.  This identity is of her own making, following in the footsteps of Lucifer, making herself like the Most High, or her definition of the most high.

So she needs to repent, to change her mind, to change her false imagination, to exchange the lie for the truth, worshipping the Creator instead of the creature.

But she won’t.

She’d rather rule in hell than serve in heaven.

She’d rather remake herself, and receive the glory of her creation, than be remade by God the Creator and let him receive the glory.

Now she knows that what God sees is infinitely better than what she does.  She knows it better than she’s ever known anything in her life.  Her mind is as clear as it can be, or ever will be.  The choice is before her and is the easiest choice to make: The choice between happiness and unhappiness. 

But she’d rather be unhappy and in charge than happy under God’s authority.

She’d rather die than be free. 

No demons are around.  No negative nagging influences.  All of this has been removed.  She can literally do whatever she wants to do in this moment of her entire life before her.  God freezes time.  He gives her the realest dream a person can have, where she lives out both decisions to the fullest, one ending in heaven, the other in hell.  She lived the heavenly and hellish life in a dream.  She woke up.  She knew.  She chose.  She has no excuse.