A message from God's Spirit to the lonely

Listen to what God's Spirit says to you, lonely one:

"To each one who read this, no coincidence exists.  Of all that you could be reading, what made you read this?  Loneliness is the condition of disconnection between Creator and creation.  I made you for our union.  I love you, dear one, daughter and son.  If you open your heart's ears, you will hear My voice of love.  Listen.  Let us be one.  Believe in God's son."

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To you, the one reading, listen to me now.  

All of my life I felt alone and lonely, like I was the only one who wanted the deepest connection.  I felt, and sometimes feel, like earth is a hell of shallowness where we hide what we are and who we are.  I felt like I had no one, and before I had God's Spirit, I did have no one.  But as it is written, this is my heart's expression:

"Whom have I in heaven but You?  And earth has nothing I desire besides You." 

Psalms 73:25

Sometimes the hole in me would feel so deep I that my fall into it seemed eternal.  I wanted to be craved as I craved, to be needed as I needed, to be longed for as I longed for.  I wanted to always touch and be touched and touching.  To be hugged tightly and timelessly, the kind of hug where neither feel afraid of hugging too long or closely, where they let go intuitively and mutually, or hold on intuitively or mutually.  Every now and then someone would hug me like this...two desperate and lonely souls finally meeting and connecting...but only briefly...after this, again, lonely.

At times a song sung by a lonely singer cuts our hearts in half.  I believe many fall in love with singing voices because this voice carries the heart of the lonely in each lyric.  Many artist turn to drugs for the high that they seek in relationships...they seek the ecstasy of intimacy...some seek it sexually, not realizing their need spiritually.

We are all alone and lonely.  We come into this world with a cry of helplessness, and we leave this world with the breathlessness of loneliness.  

Who but our Maker hears this cry?  Who but the one who breathes in our nostrils the breath of life understands this need of life?

To the one who reads, if you have read this far, you know.  You feel.  You want.  You need.  You desire.  You crave.  You obsess.  You feel this endless loneliness.  I know, because I felt this.  

If you admit that you do, then I love you.  Yes, I love you, and though I don't know you, I know you.  Isn't this what you want, immediate unconditional love?

Think about it.  If a cute little baby boy or baby girl that you never met, sitting in a grocery shopping cart, looks at you with adorable, innocent eyes and says, "I love you,"

wouldn't you respond, "I love you too," and wouldn't this love be genuine and true?

But we hide this need for immediate and real love.  Some make you feel weak because you are desperate.  You shouldn't be so "needy."  You should be satisfied with yourself and in yourself.  But God Himself said, "IT IS NOT GOOD FOR MAN TO BE ALONE."

You are not alone.

God is with you, as it is written, 

"From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands.  God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us."  Acts 17:26-27

At this moment, God is with you, lonely one.

And I am with you.

God loves you, lonely one.

And I love you.  

Why does He love you?  Because God is love.  To love for Him is to be Himself.

And why do I love you?  Because the God who is love fills me, spirit, soul, and body.  He gave me the words at the very top of the page.  He gave me these words for you, dearest one, dearest daughter and son.  He longs for you.  I long for you. You are longed for.  He desires you.  I desire you.  You are desired.  He pours out his heart to you.  I pour out my heart to you.  He risked it all.  I risk it all.  I am opening myself up for rejection.  So does God.  But YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!

I LOVE YOU!

Olatunde

is it GOD? or is he CRAZY?

how do you know FOR REAL? 

where are our BURNING BUSHES?!

would MOSES write a blog?

and even if he would, what would make his words OBVIOUSLY the words of the living GOD!?

that's really the issue. 

which is easier to say:

"my last blog came from the Spirit of God."

or

"i'm crazy."

but why would hearing God's voice make one crazy?

more importantly, why would one be considered arrogant to boldy proclaim it?

for me, it is good news--

DRAW NEAR TO GOD, AND HE WILL DRAW NEAR TO YOU!

the possibility of intimacy with the Most High Most Holy is my only reality, his voice my sanity.

i refuse to lie or deny the joy of my salvation--direct divine communication. 

in fact, Jesus defined salvation by this direct intimate connection. 

to whom should i listen?



what makes YOUR PRESENCE known?

it is written:

"God has not given us a SPIRIT OF FEAR, but He has given us a SPIRIT OF POWER, LOVE, AND A SOUND MIND."  2 Timothy 1:7 Emphasis mine.

what does it mean to have a "spirit of fear" or a "spirit of power, love, and a sound mind?"

we often speak of spirits in various ways.  we talk of "good spirits," "school spirit," "spirited people, "free spirits."  we also hear or read of demonic spirits, angelic spirits, the Spirit of God, and the spirit of people after they die....ghosts or phantoms.

have you ever noticed the atmosphere change when someone walks in a room?  do you consider some people to be "negative," and feel their negativity pervade the room like a thick fog?  or what about someone who is intimidating, filling the room with her presence like cigar smoke?

i believe that's just it. 

spirit is presence, and it is based upon self definition. 

if one defines himself as "intimidating," and has the means to intimidate, he will "come across" as intimidating even when he says and does nothing.  this person may be very cruel in word, or forceful in emotion.  he may use his intellect to out wit or manipulate.  whatever his ability in personality, he defines himself by this ability, and gives off this self definition like a strong cologne. 

so you make your presence known by your spirit, or self-definition. 

your spirit is your cologne or perfume that pervades a room. 

add to this GOD AND SATAN. 
if the SPIRIT OF GOD fills a man or woman, then he or she will come across as a SLAVE OF THE SPIRIT.  people feel GOD when they are around, and they feel that this man or woman lives for GOD ALONE.

but if the spirit of a demon possesses someone, the demonic spirit hides behind that human spirit, and exaggerates their self definition, if it fits the purposes of satan.  the man who seeks intimidation gets help from "demons of intimidation."  they cause his spirit, AND THUS THEIR DEMONIC SPIRITS, to pervade and control atmospheres.  they do this for WORSHIP!!

there it is.  there is the goal of control:

those who follow the SPIRIT OF GOD, seek only SELF CONTROL.
those who follow the SPIRIT OF SATAN, seek always the control of others. 

this is how you can tell if someone is "controlling" before he or she says a word or does a thing.  this is how you "just like" some people from the time you see them, or how you "can't stand" some people from moment you encounter them. 

VIBES!!

what makes your presence known is your self-definition. 

if you define yourself as a SLAVE OF THE SPIRIT you will come across as one whose will is one with the will of GOD.

if you define yourself as "the master of your fate and captain of your soul," whatever your specific goal, this will be as obvious as AS THE STENCH OF VOMIT IN A HIDDEN TRASH CAN!

the choice is yours, as always.
how willyou MAKE YOUR PRESENCE KNOWN?

ENCOUNTERS WITH GOD (conclusion)

These are the words of the Spirit of God to all who have read every post thus far:

"All who desire Me may have Me.  
I am as close to you as you want Me to be.  
Jesus came to connect us forever. 

The choice is yours.

Jesus is Lord.

Amen."

I, Olatunde, honor all who honor me thus far by sharing precious time in reading my words.  May my words bring you to the intimate knowledge and likeness of God.  May you embrace truest slavery with me.  May we be connected now and for all eternity.

Until we next connect, peace be with you. 

 

Encounters with God (Part 4)

Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you.

Psalms 73:25

Lonely spirits search for Him.  Who else knows them?  Who else loves them?  Born in a vacuum of solitude, awaking into blinding light, knowing nothing, knowing no one, feeling a connection with someone that quenches the thirst of birth.  Her heartbeat soothes.  Sleep.  Nourishment.  The day comes when she fails to respond to the raging cry of need.  Immediacy flees her motivation.  Other children.  Other obligations.  I am no longer her center.  (As if any of them ever were.  Each of her children feel the despair of the newborn's growth pain.)  The love still comforts, but at times in darkness I awake with no words, only screams.  It is not hunger or thirst or coldness or heat that rushes from my throat.  It is aloneness.  I am alone.  But behind the silence, at times, I feel One that always hears and is always near.  The Presence in the silence is my only friend. 

From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us

Acts 17:216-27

ENCOUNTERS WITH GOD (part 3)

THE SUPREME ULTIMATE BEING,

Existence

Expression

Experience

Unborn undying

Perfectly Good, Powerful, and Wise

Eternal, Immortal, Invisible

Infinitely Uniquely Reality

Alone but not lonely

Three who are One

One who are Three

The Creator Maker Master made man and woman to know Him and be like Him.
To rule earth as He rules heaven. 
To be one as His Existence and  His Expression are one in Experience.

The two were one body transparently...intimacy ecstasy and vulnerability.

then came the enemy
the rebel
the liar murderer tempter, made with many who became God's enemies, before the making of man and woman
the one who rejected how God made him and sought to remake himself, to take for himself the worship of God

the first woman listened to the liar
the first man listened to her
they ignored God
they died and in dying killed their unborn children

But God loved them, and all who came from them.
Existence sent His Expression as a man to die for all men and women, and to rise again that they may all live again, if they chose to trust Him with their very lives.

Expression became a man.
Perfection
Reflection
He died.
He rose.
He ascended.
All who trust Him are reborn.

Expression returned to Existence and sent Experience.

Those who accept the gift of the Expression of Existence receive THE EXPERIENCE:  The Spirit of God in their bodies, the hope of Eternal Glory.

the one condition:  total honesty

Admission and confession from those who want to be born again:
"To my CREATOR AND MAKER AND MASTER, I ignored you from my first conscious moral memory until now.  I lived as though you did not, and thus died.  Please forgive me.  I accept the death of Your Expression for me.  I accept that He rose from the dead for me.  I will no longer ignore you.  I will serve you and love you.  I am yours.  Let it be so.  It is indeed so."

ENCOUNTERS WITH GOD (Part 2)

How does it feel to have the Spirit of God inside of me? 

When I first met Him, He felt like a blanket of peace covering my body. 

He feels like you feel when you have some one's full, undivided attention, eye contact and all.

The Spirit in me feels like the listening ear of a best friend.

Once when I went to the movies, alone, I felt His presence fill the movie theater like awareness with weight.

He feels like standing on a dock at night watching crashing waves, exhilaratingly afraid of the ocean's bigness in relation to my smallness.

He feels like He feels, because He is who He is.

How does it feel to be with you? 
You feel like you. 
If we met and shook hands, you would feel like....you. 
There is no other you and no one makes the impression that you do. 

It's the same with God's Spirit. 
When you meet Him, you know it.